Sadness

For the past few mornings I have gotten to work and all I can think about is that I won't have anymore kids in Siegel High after this year. I think about Phatty and John not being there anymore, no football games to go to...things like that just race thru my head and the tears just come. I am not going to be on this earth too much longer, I have less time on earth left than I have been here. I just feel so immensely sad. I can't believe my Dad is gone, AJ is gone. Just a few weeks ago they were alive. I know I should be glad neither one is hurting anymore but it just seems as if they were this blip in timeline and everything has moved on. I feel so stupid sitting here crying about them. Crying about feeling sad. I miss Papa and Memaw, grandma watson, next will be my mom. I am not sure why I am even crying other than I just feel so sad. I miss HS football and regret that I didn't get more involved. Swirling thoughts and emotions are not good but I have them.

Just playing around

Thought I would get on here and add some new color or something different just to try to learn this stuff for fun. I love the daisys all bright and colorful. Hate to see my 48th summer go by with such haste. Not much fun this summer but learned alot about depending on God. He has been there in some pretty tough spots and some times when I wasn't sure what to do next.
Grandpa and Grandma de la Haye gave us a blessing of a family verse that paraphased goes like this--"step by step I will open up the way for thee."
I have lived that this summer.